Last day. Last time.

its bout time to..ermm...leave =(

last nite at home this year. and i really duno what i shud do. anyway, its a holiday today and we all spent the day at home simply becoz my dad tot he is having a tuition class with one of his student..untill the student's mom called to inform that daddy is allowed off today to "be with ur daugther"..LOL. sounded as if its the end of the world.

true enough. it was indeed my end of the world. and im goin to be in a world without daddy nor mommy. without lil bro to fight with me. without my grandma mumbling and grumbling about everything. literally.

i know its gonna be a wonderful world with my new found freedom. fair enough. everthing comes with a price. i have to loss all my family members to gain the freedom. knowingly that things are never gonna be the same again in 2009. i stil have to go..ppl had been waving goodbye to me. wishing me luck and all the best..bla bla..the normal tradition. and once again..i know things are not gonna be the same.

im both excited and anxious. couldnt imagine myself living alone without home cooked food. but i know im gonna be fine. mayb missing the family a lil more day by day. but looking at the bright side. i have 9 months to prepare myself to present my family a grown up and matured daughter.

and i know..at thousand miles away from home..i wil be good. and take good care of my own.

today will be my last day at home. last nite at home. and last time using this blog. hehe. im changing blog to http://makenoguesses.blogspot.com/

take care ppl.. and may god be with my family and everyone who cares. (im not a christian and my god is really..any god who is able to take care of my family)..erm..goodbye and..goodnite=)

im not busy. really not.

pretty free i would say..

i woke up at 5pm today. sat infront of the tv till 8pm. then comp..

i haven pack my stuff..im stil thinking of ways to fit in more rubbbish.

i dun speak much nowadays.

but im appearing more infront of my parents.

at least we watch tv together..LOL

i duno..im leaving in..less than 10 days. 6 to be accurate.

wat shud i feel now?? crying not wanting to go??

nah..i cant do tat. i was the one insisted on twinning.

i was the one who wanted to go to uk..

though i really dun have much choices. as if my parents gonna allow me to aus.LOL

and i tot im ready to leave my family. leave my home.

had been doin that after f5 right. staying out at inti. staying out at HELP.

but to think that this time, i wil be few thousand miles away from home. not a few kms..

i know im gonna be good. im gonna have fun..and i wil have to study hard. SIGH. i know what im doin.

im just wondering if im doin the right thing. to leave home at this very time..sigh

im hating this..arghh!!

my bag cant fit everything in..sob sob sob!!

wat am i gonna do now. i've pack, unpack, repack and pack pack pack..

STILLLLLLL!!! cannot...........................

its gonna burst anytime soon if i continue adding stuff.. HELL!!

my bags, my heels, my shoes, my coats..THEY ARE ALL NOT IN YET!!

arghhhhhhh....................

i hate packing!! especially when this happens. ARGH!!

gotten the hair cut.

helo helo.. woke up pretty early today to get my hair cut.

dun ask why is it that i have to wake up early to get the hair cut.

its simply..i duno..just the feel of doin it.

so..i finally got my hair cut.

conclusion? i lost virtually ALL my hair..

hahahaa... my hair my hair my hair.

yes..its all gone by now. and~~ i duno..i look very cute. hahaha......

and guess what, after years of cursing my hair for being too much and thick, the hairdresser commented that im balding.

like wtf. how can tat be. LOL.

anyway, im not gonna wash my hair today=)

a time to mourn for my hair. byebye long hair.

now..im all set to leave to uk =)))

too hard to say goodbye.

huhu..im adoring my long hair again..

i love it so much. its sooooooo long!!

and i have to cut it off.. sigh..

do i have to do it???????

must must must??

yes i must. or else it will be too long by next year.

sigh. byebye silky long hair.

im gonna cut it 2moro.

but of course..depends a lot on my mood and the time i leave my bed=)

buai buai my lovely hair......

peggie making more promises.

1. i will NOT SHOP ANYMORE. (as if)

2. i will NOT ADD MORE WEIGHT TO MY LUGGAGE BAGS.

3. i will STOP BUYING SHOES.

4. i will STOP BUYING WINTER CLOTHING.

5. i will NOT WASTE UNNECCESARY MONEY ANYMORE.

6. i will NOT SPEND LIKE AN IDIOT AGAIN.

7. i will STOP MAKING MYSELF A SHOPAHOLIC.

gosshhh... i just spent another few hundreds on i duno wat.. shit.. now im feeling soo soo bad. im NOT GONNA SHOP IN MALAYSIA AGAIN WITHIN THE YEAR OF 2008. my promise. hell.

days left.

less than 20 days now. 15 mayb. sigh. can i not go.

i know i know.. talking crap again. i have to go.

ohhhhhh...i so wanna stay at home. and im not packing my clothes yet.

as if i can stay at home as long as im not packing it.

my room is just like the aftermath of tsunami. deadly crazy. crazily dead.

hahaa... im hating the feeling.

i cant stay up late night again and wait for my dad to start the car and open the gate for mommy seing her off to work. (thats in the morning..hehe) he had been doin tat for years now. sweet kan!!

then i cant see my dad da bao-ing breakfast and lunch for grandma and lil bro.. and start nagging me for being such messy and unoriented lady.

then i cant see my daddy and mommy sitting at the table reading newspaper and gossip. thats the best part of the day. they will talk about all craps and rubbish. im looking forward for life like that with my other half. haha. not about getting married early. but having someone who is willing to gossip with you, and its ur other half.

then daddy and mommy will have their daily nap in the room and more gossips there of course. u dun wanna know wats goin on in there..lol

then mommy will prepare dinner and i'll make a mess in the kitchen. then we will all eat in front of the tv and make more more noise.

then daddy will feed me with food if im reading newspaper. haha..coz my hand is dirty MAH!! then daddy mommy will make fun of me and lil bro. wanting us to clear the table and plates.

then news time. gossip as well. my parents basically talk bout everything. LOL. not infront of us obviously. then more show, drama.. and lastly, bedtime.

im not gonna have that for the coming whole year. believe it or not, i nearly cried when i hear the cny song the other day. it reminded me that i wil not be around for the next cny. and i HATE IT..

god..my life is changing man..and i have to go..emooooooooooooo!!!

p/s: i wil be changing a new blog. haha..this blog is full of crap.